Those so called "SM Experts" are not experts.

What desperate parent wants to come across someone telling them their kid has to go on an IEP or 504 program? Not me. If someone ever told ME that I'd slap them silly because I'm not not smart enough to be in the 'normal kid class' and don't need THAT much help.

MORE than half the SM Parents out there aren't even looking at the fact that their child is smart, because at this point, more than likely the kid is under 10, the parent is at his/her 'last resort' and the child has no concern in their lives other than why he or she doesn't talk. And they want to get better and they don't know how, SO, they AGREE to this PROGRAM to make them "SMART".


Oh yeah, Merry Christmas.

Midwest Clinc-y.

So.... Yesterday our band class got to go to the Midwest Clinic in Chicago. It wasn't that bad... Or as bad as I thought it would be. It was pretty funny actually. (:

First we got on the bus which took forever to get on because we were shoving each other out the door... I sat next to Cassie on the bus. Haha, then we ended up watching Wall-E because of the stupid school policy of only G-rated movies. So we got there, which took forever by the way, and we waited like 2,085,437,581,643 years for the people to direct us to our 'homeroom' so we could put our stuff down and EXPLORE! We were supposed to divide into groups of ten. We had like 15 people in our group though, and I don't even know if I even remember HALF of who was in it except for: Me, Cassie, Shae, Matt, Meg, Mitch, Olivia, Tom, Anna..... and yeah I can't remember the rest. (:

So we got a bunch of free candy and looked at instruments and stuff. Blahhh. Then it was... LUNCHTIME. The food was really expensive.. Mr. Harrison (Our band teacher) gave us each a $10 bill to buy lunch. And guess what? I spent $9.98 on a stupid sandwich. But Mitch, being very un-Mitch-y gave me $3 I didn't even ask HIM for money to buy a drink (I just got an icky feeling, ha ha ha! ). So I was like, "SWEEEEET I GOTTA DRINK NOW!!!" and ran to get it. Thirst calls my friend. A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do. ;)


About five bites into my sandwich I realized I talked to the cashier when I got my food. It was a weird feeling at first and I stopped eating and stared at my sandwich and then I stared at Cassie and back at my sandwich. She laughed and so did I, but only because it seemed silly that I thought talking to the cashier was scary at first, but I did it anyways... That moment felt really good. (:


So we ate and then went to look around more, but our group somehow got split up. My arms hurt though from carrying a bag to haul all the free stuff around. Plus my grody clarinet and humongous coat and bag for extra clothes (We had to wear a TUXEDO!!!!).


More stuff happened but I can't type it all right now. :P I'll update y'all later. (:

Suffering In Silence.

I tried writing a short song or poem; Like it? Haha, I think it's alright-y.

You ignore me and shove me into the corner, telling me to suck it up!; It's not that hard. Well, for me it is! You don't know what its like; with your big mouth and lies. With your false heart and eyes.. I'm not bothering you; I can't say anything anyways.. So I just sit here and wait, suffering in silence...

SM Research Project.

A teacher of mine is letting me do selective mutism for a research project. We have to read a novel and the best one I could find was about a 12-year old girl named Jinna from China. Anyone know of a few better ones? >:*

I'm using Gale Group for my articles and SM websites. I feel hesitant doing this topic because I don't exactly agree with alot of the sources and their diagnosis and blah. Oh well. I'll ask the teacher if I can add part of 'my story' to it. She'll probably say yes since my mom thinks its a good idea. Advice from mommy. (x

Updates?

I haven't written anything in awhile so I decided to rush on this very quickly. (:

Let's see, I've had splitting headaches for awhile now,and I'm wondering if this could be part of the SM thing? Hmmph. :/ I'm getting an MRI done on my head, so I'm wondering if this could help?

I had a few miserable last couple of days.... COUGHStupidWeddingCOUGH.

I should write a book. Haha.