Part Oneeeeeee.

"Who's Amber?"
"She's the girl who doesn't talk."
"Why can't you talk?"
*shrugs*

Kind of a dumb question if you ask me, even if the "asker" is asking out of curiosity... So yeah, I decided to start some 3-4 part series of things people should know about people like me and why. This goes for parents, teachers, classmates, family members... Everyone basically. So, I guess I can start with some things that have happened to me personally. The opening sentences have happened to me, and will keep happening if something isn't done... Which will take awhile to accomplish. -UGH.-

Another experience I've had was with a family member, and he basically implied that talking is easy to do, everyone can do it, and that I should because people will think this and that and so on about me. That made me feel stupid, honestly. It's a life-scarring experience for me, that seemed like it lasted forever at the time, but to other people who've done and said similar things will not give it another thought. Never.

People say things about me which aren't true (Rumors, der-her-her), literally kill me in side. I can't help not talking sometimes! It isn't my fault, it isn't my parent's fault, it isn't anyone's fault. All these professional experts people... They try so hard to figure out things about us, but to me that's over-whelming, because I'm still trying to figure out alot about myself... Inside I'm a 'normal' person with 'normal' dreams and 'normal' stuff to worry about. But then there's this other side of me that pops out, whenever it feels like. Like a jack-in-the-box... Except you have to turn the little cranks on those.. So bad analogy. Like DAISIES. -Smile- Except they are ugly daises, showing the horrible part of me that I can't control, and without those Weed Whackers, I keep growing and growing and nothing can stop me.

-Phew, mouthful of random thoughts that keep popping into my head. :) -